Friday, February 26, 2010

War & Treaty

"We will never keep shut and adjust to such situations in our life"
"Protest against Male domination"
"We are equal and should be treated equally at work fronts"
"People rise-up and save the world from getting divided"


We must be hearing slogans, statements and demonstrations related to such topics.


But, the other side of the story speaks of the opposite front.


They say,

"We are physically more stronger so apt for some jobs"
"We are more logical, practical and Sensible creatures"
"We are more responsible and capable of taking rational decisions".



Is any of the statements above justified? Can the world survive with any one of the counter-parts dominations? It's an age-old conflict that remains unsolved like the Indo-Pak confronts.
The war is declared right from the time a girl and a boy is born. There intra-gender survival struggle and their inter-gender struggle keeps growing simultaneously from the time when they are born and take the first breath in the open air outside the placenta! It is this struggle for survival that leads to war at the end. This war seems to be a never-ending phenomena of the world. No matter, how much equal and equally strong both the sexes become still the war can never be called-off!

The first level starts in school. A girl gets into the same school as a boy. In the class, the boys keeps bullying the girls. They outshine most of the girls in physical activities but when it comes to performing arts and academics the girls attack the boys with their missiles and blows-out their base with greater performance.

But, the male-ego rushes up their adrenaline channels and hits the boy’s brain so hard- that they again fights-back and declares open-fire against the fairer sex with the start of college. They take-up a much intellectual strategy of attack! They attack the opposite sex with their charm, words, and personality. They hit their targets right at the place where it cannot be mended- the heart! But, the girls are not easy targets to attack.

They retaliate back with their beauty, looks, charm and attractiveness so much that mostly the stronger sex falls head over heals and becomes slave to the fairer sex. This part of the confront gradually deepens. The attack from the two opposite base-camps continues till the two fronts finally realizes that they have actually fallen prey to the attack of the strongest feeling of human- Love.

When the adrenal rushes uncontrollably within each of the sexes body the attraction within the gender over-powers the hatred for each other-that they are born with. The enmity suddenly vanishes when God from above drops his small potion of love on the two sexes. Immediately, it seems all the missiles, artilleries and weapons falling worthless, non-functional and useless.

They get ready to hoist the white flag of peace and sign the” Peace treaty”, named socially as Marriage.

The signing of the treaty signals-off the end of the war for one generation, but the newer generations born, then continues the war till the time there treaty is signed. This way the never-ending battle continues and the visciuous cycle of our life’s struggle also goes on with it.

Saturday, February 13, 2010

A scribble...

Pal ko ke beech...
Saanso ke pass...
Dhadkan ke saath

Jo mujhe jeene ke liye chahiye-

woh ho

BATANA ZAROORI NAHI, right?

YOU- A Ray of Light.

It was a dark tunnel that I was passing through.
I could hear my heart thumping aloud!
I craved for a hand to hold me...
I longed for a someone to guide me to light!

But,

No body was there to be found.
I screamed, I yelled, I cried but I failed!

I was left behind- A lonely girl amidst the darkest tunnel of life!
I gave-up all hope of returning to light.
I gave-up all dreams of getting someone-I can call mine.

I looked down, tears trickled down my eyes. Like pearl on the sea bed,
my teardrops got embedded within the dark sea.
I cursed God! How can he be so cruel...

Suddenly, I closed my eyes!
A shiny streak of light reflected through my tear drop.
A ray of hope entered the dark tunnel of my life.

And do you know..who was there standing across in light!

It was YOU- standing with open arms, with eyes filled with tears and a heart over-filled with love!

It was that moment which enlightened my life forever!

I fail all the time!

I tried to weigh it!
But its too heavy to weigh!

I tried to measure it..
I found it too long to measure!

I even tried to understand it-
then I felt am too dumb to do so!

Now,

I finally thought of writing it!

But,

As expected words are falling too short to show-
how much "I LOVE U".

Now-a-days...

Life is awesome...
when I see it now!

Living is great...
when I feel it now!

Taking every breath is thrilling-
when I realise it now!

You know why such happens now?

Because-
You are there and around me- Now!!

Friday, February 12, 2010

A journey towards marriage

I was in college(first year). I was a very promising student of the college, with high academic ambitions. After finishing school i had opted for a Woman's college, so that young handsome, appealing and attractive creatures of the opposite sex cannot dampen my career and my concentration of studies. But, I feel god must have mocked at my decision of curbing my inner leaping, thumping heart from possesing emotional turmoils.

Just a few days before my first college exam, I was happily enjoying a daily show on TV with Mom. I feel it was my only time in the whole day when i let my adrenal rush and get to the highest emotional point of love. Just then, an alert of message delivery came on my mobile. That time i never realised that God has done his work. He had already given my most important person's entry within my life- with that slight beep on my mobile.It was the most strangest and the most adevnturous moment in my life since i left school and joined the college. An SMS of a stranger seeking freindship. Usually, the kind of proudy and arrogant person I am, my most expected behaviour would be to call up or SMS some foul words at the initiator so that the person would forget SMSing for few days. But, to my own astonishment and to the other person's surprise I immediately pressed the reply button on my mobile and sent a very small message that turned out to be a start of the longest journey and the most pleasant journey of my life. I sent a reply saying "OK".

We kept SMSing each other for the next three to four days. The leap within my heart increased its pace. I felt as if a young colt have been set-free. I anxiously kept waiting for the stranger's reply. With every beep of an SMS coming from hi made my heart thump so loud that sometimes i used to get scared that may be my parents near by can hear them. But, may be if they heard it, they never thought that apart from studies and work any thing else can increase the thump in my heart.

After the strange incident recurred for half a week I decided to talk to him. I felt as if, within those few days and with those few SMS exchanges I have exchanged every little experiences and feelings of our lives. I felt I knew him so well! I knew him as much as I know myself. So, for me talking to him was just a human formality.

Without thinking twice about any sort of practical dangers and problems I gave him my landline number and asked him to call. It was around Six-thirty when our phone rang. I picked- up and with emotions trying to gush out of my voice, I said "Hello". From the other side a very heavy-based, voice, with exuberating attitude replied. It was unbelievable for me to realise that I was talking to a stranger. But, as they say, when the correct string in the guitar is plucked and the correct tune is played on the piano a never ending music comes out:; simillarly, for me- rather for us, we struck the right chord of life and hence our conversation became never-ending. We kept talking for more than an hour. This became a regular event in my life. we talked so much over the phone that we hardly realised that we have never met.

After seven months we thought that we should make our friendship, more humane and so the first step towards it is- meet. So, we met. It was the most horrible meeting. This was like plucking all wrong strings in the guitar. I also lost all hope of making our strange friendship transforming into the most special relationship and it was the same on his part aswell.

But, both of us believed that this could not be our end. We felt that there is something stranger hidden within our strange relationship that we kept talking to each other without expecting anything in return.

Again we met, this I feel was a more formal and structured meeting of ours. After this meeting I really started liking him a lot. But, I again wanted to ignore that feeling of mine, since my superiority complex was not allowing me to accept that I was slowly going weak before the most handsome and charming young man I have ever met.

I was in love-finally! We met for a movie. It was then when my complexes surrendered and my heart completely got drowned into the sea of love- only for him.
My impatient, energetic girl from within did not want the feeling to stay within my heart. Since I always had boys showing interest in me and complimenting me on my looks and my talent, I thought getting his love would not be hard. But, guess I was wrong.

I felt my whole false world -filled with perceptions of me being beautifull and attractive shattered with his one small reply, which was- NO.

For the next five years I was regularly in touch with him as a best freind. Helping him, supporting him, giving him company as a freind- no form his side not even a freind just a mere SMS pal. yes, I was just another conservative girl belonging to a older part of the city, who got befreinded with an urban man living in a modern world.

I showed him the affection and gave him all the loyalty that is expected from a best friend, he always acknowledged it but never accepted my Love.

Meanwhile, my old interest of life kept growing. I kept ushering my career-struggling, achieving, failing, falling-again standing, grabbing again slipping! While I was amidst this turmoil I had My friend going to mumbai for his career.

I was left all alone. No phone calls no contacts, no daily long chats. Then, after almost three months and with the ascent of a new year again came my friend's SMS. I got up with the new year's sun's golden beam of light falling on my face, the birds chirping near my window and that old beep in my mobile. I got him back in my life. May be not in the form I want but atleast his preasence was again to be felt in my life.

After a year and a half, and after a lot of ups and downs in my work life I decided to go to mumbai for ushering my career. Then I never thought that it's not that I will get my career sorted in this city but also get my Life!

Within a couple of months of my stay, he started noticing me. He started looking up to me. He actually started thinking about me, which he has never done for th elast five years of our friendship. It was for five years that I used to think about him, talk about him, smile at his thought, cry at his absence. Now, more than I did, he started doing so. I could feel it, I could read it and I couold hear the untold word form his mouth. But, now, my hope of getting his love was almost lost so I never wanted to get drowned again within the sea of Love for him, where I can never get an anchorage of his hand.

But, no I was wrong. It was something more astonishing that this strange stranger was going to do in my life. He proposed marriage to me. I had no other options other than saying yes to him, since he was my breath, he was my senses, he was my heart-beat, he was actually the things needed for a human to live. Since I wanted to live so I had to say "Yes" to him. We broke the word to our parents who met and finalised the dates, then finally we got married. Its been three months now since our marriage and now when I look back and think about those days when I longed for his presence for him to be close to me then I feel that it was good that I longed for him for so long. It is because of that longing that today I really cherish his presence in my life, I get anxious if I don't et his call while in office. He is not my love interest any more. I should say he is my habit, he is my breath, he is my heart-beat, he is the object which after every wink my eye want to see, his voice is the only thing that my ear wants to hear, his touch is the only thing that my body wants to feel.

Though my journey towards my marriage had been very emotionally whirling and stormy but still the calm, peace and happiness that it ended with, that now I pray to God that hope I get this turmoil in evry life of mine and I hope that after every turmoil of life I get him to bring peace and happiness in my life!..............................................